I know not everyone believes in a creator God who watches over the inhabitants of the earth, but I do.
I’ve been frustrated lately and this morning found me ready to surrender my will, if only for the shortest period of time. I was ready…to hear, to learn, to see, and to change today.
I woke up at 4am this morning and could not get back to sleep. I was fretting. Fretting about something I shared in a vulnerable moment yesterday. Something that colored an others opinion of me. Something I had not shared before. I hate that!
I hate that I fret.
I hate that I’m sometimes vulnerable.
I hate not being able to be authentic without feeling violated.
I hate being awake at 4am when I have to get up for the day at 6am!!!
This week has been stressful. I’ve been busy, and just come off a weekend with the wee ones, which is especially taxing when we are north of NEPA and sleeping on couches for two nights. I should have taken Monday off. I wasn’t needed up north, as expected though, so I decided to do what I could to see that everything went off smoothly for a party we had at work Monday. It did, but it cost me.
All this to say that when I prayed and meditated this morning, God showed up in a powerful way. It was as if He knew exactly what I needed to hear, and as if the words written by Oswald Chambers and the author of the devotional over at The Seeds 4 Life were written with me in mind. I’m grateful. I encourage you to check out both offerings today. You’ll find Oswald’s words in My Utmost for His Highest on June 15th and The Seeds 4 Life devotional here. Enjoy!
I hope you all slept soundly through the night last night. I hope I can catch up on my sleep tonight. I have another big family gathering on July 2nd. Between now and then I need to fortify myself so that I can be ready.
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What will you do over the 4th of July weekend? When was the last time you woke up at night fretting over something you’d said, done, or seen?