Insomnia-induced Writing

A few weeks ago I endured one of the worst cases of insomnia I have ever experienced. What follows is the writing of a sleep-weary individual. Seriously, in the span of sixty-three hours I slept just under six, and those sleep periods were hit and miss.  Mostly miss; ugh!

I might have been a lil loopy when I wrote this piece, and admittedly, Dr. Who may have an influence, but hey, at least I didn’t raid the refrigerator.  😉  I also penned several poems during that time, but I realized after some sleep that most of them are gibberish. Figures.

Keep reading, if you dare.  L

The Statue

It was a statue, nothing more, but Malcolm couldn’t help himself.

He started:  “I swear, I don’t know what’s gotten into you. I ask and I ask, always the same questions: ‘What’s wrong? What have I done? You’re angry, I can see that, but you never say a word.’”

The statue stood silent.

“Your silence accuses, you know that, right? It screams manipulation. ‘You have done this. You have said that. You have walked away. You have given up on us.’”

The statue stared.

“I’ve tried being patient. I’ve tried waiting. I’ve tried confrontation. I‘ve tried getting to the bottom of it all, but you will not listen. Will not reply. Will not even acknowledge me.”

The statue didn’t acknowledge Malcolm.

“So, I’m to think what?”

The statue didn’t respond.

“I see, I see, you can’t say. Is that it?”

The statue didn’t say.

“You feel beaten down? Alone? Maybe that I’m too negative, is that it?”

Malcolm waited for a response.

“That’s how you see me?” His face flushed with frustration.

The statue didn’t see.

“I know you can speak. I’ve heard you talk to others. I’ve see you interact with them. I know you’re singling me out for silence.”

The statue said nothing.

“Are you a coward, then? Is that why you remain mute?”

No response.

“Do you not care?”

Nothing.

“Is this shunning practice your normal mode of operation these days?”

Nada.

“Can you not forgive?”

The statue didn’t forgive, or move, or respond in any way.

Malcolm moved away. “And now I suppose you’ll blame me for leaving you.” He looked over his shoulder one last time.

“Such a pity,” he whispered. “Stone and dry bones, they’re like seeds that fall among thorns; choked off. You’ve heard my words, but you will not understand; you’ve seen what I do, but perceive not its meaning. Hearts harden, until finally ears cannot hear and eyes cannot open. In the end, they can no longer turn, nor can they soften. Stone begets stone.”

The statue remained unmoved.

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Twins!

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I found these twin sisters at the Elmira chapter of the VOA, Volunteers of America.  I told you about me recent shopping excursion there and the lamp I bought for $5, right?  We went and got another for my BIL, who recently moved.  He loved his new lamp, but his doesn’t have the three-way switch like mine does.  Nah, nah, nah, nah, nah!

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Both of these gems are Pyrex and cherry red–my favorite color. Made in the USA. Hoorah!!!

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Aren’t they sweet?!  A lil worn and dings here and there, but I think that makes them more charming, not less.

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These were just $3 for the set.  Score!  One I am using for a butter dish, and the other is in reserve. Not sure how she will be put into service yet, but I’ll find a use for her.  I always do.

The table runner these beauties are sitting on was purchased at the craft fair at Appleridge Senior Living. My gal, Connie, works there.  She invited me to the craft fair, and this year I scored big time.  At this year’s event I bought the mini table runner, a second table runner I gifted to someone at Christmas, and two necklaces (one for me, one I gifted to another).  All quality items.

Funny note about the holly table runner; it has my name spelled out in the scroll work.  You can’t see it in these pictures, but its true. Cool addition to my dining room, but one I’ll have to soon put away.  Holly in summer–ridiculous!

Do you rummage sale much, or shop at places like VOA?  What has been your greatest find when you’ve gone on the hunt with nothing particular in mind?

Hitting a Brick Wall?

000brick wallBrowsing the internet yesterday, I found that the staff over at msn.com had shared some reasons why my weight loss might have slowed. They were writing this for me, right?

I’ve had some problems getting my weight to move lower down the scale in the past. Who hasn’t?  Anyway, I thought I’d check their insights out and then blog about them. This is my attempt to address which of their reasons for a slow-down in my weight loss I found valid, and why.

Your weight loss might be stalled if:

1. You have a wimpy breakfast. We’ve heard this one again and again, EAT YOUR WHEATIES! I eat breakfast every morning and most mornings it consists of measured amounts of grains, protein, carbs, and coffee. This is not the reason why I’m stalled in my weight loss attempts.

2. Cardio is your go-to exercise. True, but I’m not working all that hard at any exercise at this time. I ride a bike most nights for 30 plus minutes. I do no weight training. I gave up my gym membership when I hurt myself and haven’t been back since. I live in NEPA, which doesn’t help. It has been months since I was outside moving around. This could be one reason for my weight loss slow-down.

3. You only use light weights. I use no weights, other than my hefty self, which I drag around with me everywhere I go. I don’t go much of anywhere. I’m an office manager by day and a critical observer by night (read: I watch too much TV and read most nights). I’m older and less mobile than when I had toddlers running around that I had to chase, so that’s a factor, too. This could seriously be one reason why I’m not losing as quickly now.

4. You don’t eat before you work out. This one was interesting, because the story I read said that some folks avoid protein before working out and that is absolutely the wrong thing to do. The only thing much wronger, I guess, is to not eat anything before exercising (see how I made up that word I wanted to use? that was a goal for this year’s blogging: make up more words). I have noticed that when I eat protein before I exercise (approximately 30 mins before), my legs seem to endure the ride better. I’m able to stay on the bike longer, and my recovery in the knee region is quicker after the ride.

5. You only work out on your own. The article I read talked about the importance of a support group, both for exercising together, holding each other accountable, and for other weight loss needs. I concur. Doing this with a buddy or two keeps me engaged and motivated. This is not why my weight loss has slowed. I have a support group.

6. You stress yourself about the scale. Shut up, I do not! 😉 But seriously, I might have done this years ago—made that number on the cold steal thingy a god in my life—but no more. For some time now I have seen the scale as a friend who lovingly reminds me that cheese cake three weeks in a row might not be good for me. I don’t eat cheese cake three weeks in a row, and I am not shy about stepping on the scale, so this is not my problem. I monitor without fear daily, and like it that way.

7. You down diet soda. Nope, not me. I “might” drink a diet soda once a year, but I have no affinity for it. The last time I had one was at the office Christmas party, where I drank half the can then tossed the rest. Before that, I can’t remember, it’s been so long. This is not a contributor to any weight loss difficulties I have.

8. You skip dessert, but not the bread bowl. Not my problem. I do admit to eating out too often, but I rarely order dessert. And occasionally I eat from the bread bowl, although I was proud of myself for passing it up a few days ago when hubs took me out to eat. I do love my bagels, but more often than not I am pulling the stuffing out of my hoagie roll or grilled Panini, and eating only the goodies inside. Too much bread is not my problem.

These things are specific to me and might be my problem:

I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again: Ice cream is my kryptonite. If I have a problem with food, it’s that.

I can see that I have a problem with getting enough exercise and activity in general. Like I said, I sit in an office chair all day and type, and take calls, and act as an executive secretary to my CEO, and direct the flow of my administrative staff members, so my life is pretty sedentary.

I’m not going to gym right now.

I keep putting off joining the local Tai Chi classes, though I have been asked to join numerous times.

I don’t walk outside in the ice and snow because of a fear of falling (did that last year, and took a full-grown adult male down with me, no fun!).

I also wonder if some of the meds I am on are stalling my efforts. I’m going to talk to my PCP about that next time I see him. See if we can switch some things up, maybe do an herbal, instead of a pharmaceutical for my slow thyroid. It occurs to me that might be slowing my progress.

I’ve notice that I don’t lose as quickly as I did even two years ago. Maybe age is creeping up and I need to be more ruthless with my intake.

Lately, I have seen a few pounds depart, as I have taken up my time with some DIY projects.  That has been great!

Which of the above insights most often affects your efforts to lose weight? Which one of these are you willing to work on improving, going forward?

here’s a link to the article I read.  http://www.msn.com/en-us/health/health-weightloss/8-mistakes-that-are-slowing-your-weight-loss/ss-AA2fN0P#image=1

Cross Stitch on Steroids

Soo cool. This may be a future DIY for me. Love it!!!

Found This Painted That

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If you’ve ever done cross stitch in any form, you’ll understand how fun it can be, how relaxing and mind numbingly TEDIOUS!

I saw these :

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I thought to myself, how do I do these in giant form in less time?? Ceiling grid tiles came to mind, but they are plastic and flimsy at best.  And then it hit me! Peg Board!

IMG_1827 It has holes that can join up to make the x’s needed in cross stitch, it’s bigger than any cross stitch canvas and it’s cheap at $8.00 for a 2’x4′ sheet. (which let me interject here is a double edged sword as I’ll explain shortly).

I have used peg board to make a fabulous headboard, and now it could make a piece of art.

After deciding on the retro girl, I had to figure out (CURSES! Math!) how to draw it on the board and how…

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MEATLESS MONDAY–Baking Secrets Revealed

Did you know that you can bake with Non-GMO Cornstarch? You can.

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And did you know that you can also buy Aluminum-Free Baking Powder?

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You can.

I learned this in 2014.  2014!!!!

I have been baking for decades, but I didn’t know this until 2014.

Why did I not know this earlier?

And why, oh why, would anyone bake with aluminum if they didn’t have to?

Good question, right???!

So, this is my post and tip for baking on a Meatless Monday.  And as an added bonus, here the link to a cornbread recipe I love, taken from the Everyday Happy Herbivore cookbook by Lindsay S. Nixon:

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Try this gem. You’re gonna love it too!

Do you have a favorite cornbread recipe?  What secrets have you discovered this year about baking, that you never knew before?